The eyes are the seat of the soul. They can also mirror hell, unspeakable horror. Eyes pried wide open by pain and infinite fear. The eyes of the children running from madness and cross-fire on September 3, 2004, at a school in Beslan, North Ossetia, many in their underwear, nothing covering them, nobody left to protect them.
Dead children, injured kids, crazed parents. The photos, together with the news updates, began to flood the media. Online galleries of horrors appearing on all newspaper sites. I looked at the first few and then stopped. Stopped watching the news on TV. Tried not to look at the newspaper stands with frontpages like mourges displaying body bags.
I stopped looking, watching, not because I wanted to forget, but because I had seen enough. I had seen too much.
A few months ago, I remember seeing, half-hidden online, photographs of the disfigured corpses of Iraqi children. What remained of fragile bodies after they had been blown to bits. I remember the anger and wondering why they weren't being shown on TV, in the press. Why weren't we showing the effect of what happens when you bomb a country in the name of democracy and liberation. The charred, sliced-up faces of collateral damage.
Not sure at all now. Today, I read that a video shot by the terrorists inside the school has been shown on Russian TV. The stills are available on the BBC website. Why? What does this add? What is the point of the gruesome details, the images, if we are powerless to stop the carnage? Has information become a snuff film?
The eyes are the seat of the soul. They can also mirror memories, establish connections. I recall images of Grozny in rubble. Like East London, Dresden, Hiroshima, after the second world war. But do not misunderstand me. There can be no justification ever for what happened in Beslan. No justification ever, no understanding is possible. But I cannot help but think how violence breeds violence, and how the violence becomes more vicious, and we freefall, spiralling out of control, into the depths of unspeakable, systematic cruelty. How can you sink any lower than targeting children, on their first day of school?
On September 3, 2004, chechen terrorists and russian soldiers shot down the future, the hope of learning, our humanity. Today, the news is filled with the kidnapping of two Italians in Iraq. Two women striving for peace through their work for an NGO. And then, as I write, there are all the child soldiers from Colombia to Africa, all the child slaves working across Asia, all the dispossessed world-wide, all those that will not receive mention of their suffering today.
We are all children of Beslan, caught in the cross-fire of bloodthirsty bastards. A minority of monsters playing out power struggles with our lives. It's time to turn the table around. Break the cycle of violence. Just don't ask me how.